Carbon dilemmas

I recently arrived home from a teaching trip to Lithuania and Germany. The connections were rich. The newly emerging mindfulness-based teaching community in Lithuania are eager to learn, warm in their welcome and a delight to spend time with. Senior teaching colleagues in Germany were keen to look collectively at how they could strengthen integrity in mindfulness-based practice in Germany through a coordinated implementation of the MBI:TAC to support reflective practice and assessment.  

So in multiple ways it was a worthwhile trip. However, I also connected with my increasing sense of dissonance at the multiple flights that these trips often involve. This awareness has been present for several years, but the recent news about the fragile state of our planet’s biodiversity and climate breakdown is heart breaking. The urgency of the situation has landed for me in a deeper way. I feel moved to write and share about this…I feel hungry for connection and conversation around these challenges and dilemmas. 

There are some justifications and counter arguments, such as: it is far better for one teacher to fly than for multiple students/trainees; the net good that the work of mindfulness does in the world maybe outweighs the damage that the carbon emissions cause; I offset my carbon through UN approved projects; and the flights would fly anyway, etc. However, it is increasingly clear that radical action is needed on all levels, individual and collective. We don’t have time to tinker around the edges. I have an increasing sense that I have to join the painful process of changing my behaviours and habits, as many others have already done. My historical carbon debt is embarrassingly high, largely through flights for teaching trips.

Like many people, over the last years my family and I have taken action on the home front. We have insulated our old stone Welsh cottage as much as we can, have a beautiful array of solar panels, and are thoughtful about how we use energy in the house. We have transitioned to a plant-based diet, buy locally as far as is possible and grow some of our own. Our small garden is as filled with habitats for native wildlife as it can be – native flowers, bird boxes, a pond and insect habitats. We take obsessional pleasure in minimising the amount of rubbish that goes into landfill and shop with as little packaging as possible to keep our recycling containers as light as they can be. We are working on bringing our car mileage down. I am (re)discovering that as I engage in wholesome action in these small but significant ways, I feel much clearer and live with less of an accumulation of dissonance and difficulty. But there is no doubt that my flying habit is an outlier in all this…it adds to the world’s carbon debt, and closer to home leaves an uncomfortable legacy on my conscience.

One of the strengths of the mindfulness-based field is the interconnection between colleagues and centres internationally. There is a potent sense of working towards a shared vision of a world in which humans are in wiser relationship with themselves and the environment. These international collaborations have been built through personal connections during teaching trips and conferences. I do trust that there has been much benefit to the world from these connections. 

However, I yearn to talk more with colleagues about actions we can take now, as a mindfulness community, to lessen the environmental impact of our work. Examples that are on my mind at the moment are looking at whether we should put more of our energies into engagements that are closer to our homes, and shift our international connections with each other more to video conferencing. It’s not the same as getting up closein person with each other, but it’s also remarkably effective and workable. Maybe it’s time to get creative about conferences – perhaps having a hub conference with satellites in regions around the world into which keynotes are streamed, and then within each region the local work of community building can take place. Maybe at times it is worth strategically flying in one experienced trainer to regions that are so early in their development that there is no local expertise. After face-to-face connections have been built with key colleagues in these regions, we can support them in their capacity building work, via online connections. Maybe it’s also time to see where train travel is feasible rather than plane. 

I have an intention to move into a phase of greater discernment and scrutiny of the cost benefit balance of each flight I take. I will also look for alternatives. I have teaching trips in France and Germany scheduled – these can certainly involve train rather than plane travel going forward. I acknowledge that this is only a mild hardship. The felt experience for me of flying is not pleasant – it leaves me feeling a little nauseous and depleted for a few hours after, and more vulnerable to colds for a few days after. My family are all in the UK, which makes things simpler for me. Continental Europe is very accessible by train. I know that for others the challenges and complications are greater, and that sometimes there is simply no option other than to fly. 

And finally, I feel a deep sense of gratitude to the Extinction Rebellionmovement who took a stand on the streets of London over Easter, and particularly to those who have sacrificed their liberty and their criminal record to stand up for the Earth. It is unclear at this point whether there is time to reduce our carbon emissions to sustainable levels, or to preserve enough habitat space for wildlife. The scale of the changes that are needed and the complications of making them happen on a systemic level are daunting. Much of this is beyond my capacity to influence - but it feels important take action in the areas of my life over which I do have influence. It would be good to be able to say to our grandchildren that we took a stand and did what we could. 

We do not inherit the land from our ancestors, we borrow it from our children.

–     Native American proverb

Rebecca Crane

May 2019

Publication date: 28 May 2019